requishna

I have been gone a long time from DA. Many people I had connected with have left DA, and the others have continued to grow and change (as humans are wont to do). As for myself, I am not certain I'm really back, or if I am briefly flirting with it again. The part that I've always appreciated about DA is that I can come and go from it as I need, want, please.

Despite my creative leanings, and the integral part creativity plays in my general well-being, I have been neglectful. And now I am newly reawakened to that fact as my mental health has declined, affecting those around me as well as myself. Even if this return is but a brief foray into the seductive world of this art community, I am feeling a certain amount of dedication to continuing my contributions, at least for a while.

I have one question, perhaps some of you may have suggestions for me. I expect that I shall pick up free-writing again, in a way that I have not previously published here. My question is how does it make most sense to publish these writings? I generally do free-writes with pen on paper, expressing myself through the physical act of writing. This means I could attempt to publish these writings as images, or I could attempt to type them up. The next question is one of location - Where do others feel it would be best to post such writings? My first inclination is to post them as Journals, though this would not allow the option (to my knowledge) of posting an image.

It is more important for me, at this moment, to build new relationship based on trust and understanding than for me to keep perpetuating my art for selfish reasons. Therefore, my non-nudes and my poems shall remain, but the nudes shall not. This is not open for debate. Thank you for all your support, my dear Watchers, but I am embarking on a new phase in my life, and will not be held back by or pushed forward by the presence of my art here.
Well wishes, and all the best.
C.

A wise person here on DA said that they were happy to comment on my pieces as long as I was happy creating them. While I am not UNhappy creating them at this point, nor am I entirely happy. Once upon a time my nudes served a purpose for me. That purpose has been fulfilled , and so it is with a slightly wistful heart that I am announcing that I will be taking many of my nudes off of DA. I will be leaving the images I am most proud of and that I like best.

If you wish to leave me a comment, please do so on this journal entry or by sending me a note.

Thank you for all your support, I will be posting more photos and written works, but not many, if any, nudes.

Always,
C.

5 years ago tonight, I was in a wheelchair, just grateful to be alive. Valuing my family beyond belief.

Here I am, 5 years later, and the memory of sitting in my wheelchair, in the church for the candlelit service, barely able to believe I had been so fortunate... that memory still nearly brings me to tears. This holiday season isn't about the physical things, the iPods and Barbies and chocolates... It's about appreciating what we do have, the people in our lives. And showing that appreciation through gifts and hugs and merriment and getting together.
Christmas is more about being thankful in my opinion than American/Canadian thanksgiving is even. It's about joy.
No matter what you celebrate or do not celebrate, I think everyone can agree that this is a time for joy and celebration and thanksgiving and reflection.

I for one am going to appreciate and love my grandmother, my last surviving grandparent, so much more this year because she is not well and i need her to know I love her while I still have the chance to say as much to her.

Peace, Love, Joy - now and always.

So considering some of the responses I have gotten to my recent posts I think after I finish posting the current photo series I will have to reevaluate my poses to be more... Artistic. I appreciate that many people love my figure but I would like at some point to be considered more of an artist than just someone to lust after.  Hell, if I had willing models I would not mind stretching my photographer wings a bit more.