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I have been gone a long time from DA. Many people I had connected with have left DA, and the others have continued to grow and change (as humans are wont to do). As for myself, I am not certain I'm really back, or if I am briefly flirting with it again. The part that I've always appreciated about DA is that I can come and go from it as I need, want, please.

Despite my creative leanings, and the integral part creativity plays in my general well-being, I have been neglectful. And now I am newly reawakened to that fact as my mental health has declined, affecting those around me as well as myself. Even if this return is but a brief foray into the seductive world of this art community, I am feeling a certain amount of dedication to continuing my contributions, at least for a while.

I have one question, perhaps some of you may have suggestions for me. I expect that I shall pick up free-writing again, in a way that I have not previously published here. My question is how does it make most sense to publish these writings? I generally do free-writes with pen on paper, expressing myself through the physical act of writing. This means I could attempt to publish these writings as images, or I could attempt to type them up. The next question is one of location - Where do others feel it would be best to post such writings? My first inclination is to post them as Journals, though this would not allow the option (to my knowledge) of posting an image.
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Shinedown - No More Love
  • Reading: Children of the Mind by Orson Scott Card
  • Drinking: copious amounts of water
As a child I remember attending funerals, but to be honest, I didn't really understand grief. It wasn't until I was 12 that someone who I felt close to passed away and I finally grasped what this deep sadness could be like. In the spring of 2002, I learned about what it meant to grieve.

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Our watches read 4pm, which means it is time to go. It's always hard visiting Uncle Bill. He doesn't speak anymore, and I don't think he knows who I am. But I keep drawing him pictures to bring each visit because they brighten up his drab room, and I keep hoping that they reach him in some small way. Today's drawing is a self-portrait of me with the new Crayola markers I got for Christmas. I just finish explaining it to him, hoping that somewhere in his mind he'll see it and remember me, when mom says we should head home. Usually when we leave, Uncle Bill walks down the dim hallway with us - Aunt Doris, my mom, my brother, and I. He usually walks beside us, arms at his sides, not really seeming to register who he's walking with, just kind of along for the ride. So when his large, working man's hand engulfs my small, child's hand, I am so surprised I nearly stop dead in my tracks. This is the first time in what feels like forever that there seems to be a glimmer of recognition from him. A little flutter of hope blooms in my heart. Maybe he'll get better.

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Two days later mom delivered the devastating news that Uncle Bill had passed away.
I have been gone a long time from DA. Many people I had connected with have left DA, and the others have continued to grow and change (as humans are wont to do). As for myself, I am not certain I'm really back, or if I am briefly flirting with it again. The part that I've always appreciated about DA is that I can come and go from it as I need, want, please.

Despite my creative leanings, and the integral part creativity plays in my general well-being, I have been neglectful. And now I am newly reawakened to that fact as my mental health has declined, affecting those around me as well as myself. Even if this return is but a brief foray into the seductive world of this art community, I am feeling a certain amount of dedication to continuing my contributions, at least for a while.

I have one question, perhaps some of you may have suggestions for me. I expect that I shall pick up free-writing again, in a way that I have not previously published here. My question is how does it make most sense to publish these writings? I generally do free-writes with pen on paper, expressing myself through the physical act of writing. This means I could attempt to publish these writings as images, or I could attempt to type them up. The next question is one of location - Where do others feel it would be best to post such writings? My first inclination is to post them as Journals, though this would not allow the option (to my knowledge) of posting an image.
  • Mood: Content
  • Listening to: Shinedown - No More Love
  • Reading: Children of the Mind by Orson Scott Card
  • Drinking: copious amounts of water

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Once upon a time there lived a girl. Life happened. Overnight she became a new girl 5 years ago. Welcome to who I am now.
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It would be awesome if you let me know how my art work is? Oh, and here is a Llama because I am awesome like that, hehe :D
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